Mommy's Project 52:38 Emotional

This is the first blog post that I have posted late.  I have been dragging my feet not really wanting to talk about this topic.  Emotions are a struggle for me right now.

I know that when I have my emotions under control I am a happier and better wife and mother.  Knowing that doesn't seem to help in my struggle to accomplish this task.  I have always been emotional but felt I succeeded in keeping it under control until I had children.  My life where I got enough sleep, didn't put too much on my plate, and only had my own well-being to consider made all that much easier to keep those emotions under control.

Add a husband, two kids, three moves, and all the things that go along with life and all of a sudden I need to adapt and cope while supporting my husband and helping my two kids to grow.  I still think I hide the emotional side until something breaks the proverbial last straw and then the anger or tears just come out.  Let's just say that it is not an ideal situation for any of us.

In an effort to find a calm place, I did join an exercise place which helps greatly.  I pay once a month and I have unlimited visit and unlimited childcare so when I need to let off some steam I have a great outlet.  The other thing I really try to do is get enough sleep.  It can be hard because sometimes you would rather stay up late and watch a movie or surf the web when I really need to do is catch some sleep especially when the kids are getting up at night.  If I exercise, I sleep better, and when I sleep better, the whole day goes better.  So a combination of sleep and exercise is a powerful combination in keeping my emotions in control.

I am trying to be more mindful. When I say that I am making an effort to be thankful, content, and joyful in my daily life.  Things that help me are prayer, writing a gratitude journal, and trying to stop negative thinking in its tracks.

Joining a mom's group here, I am hoping to meet some other moms who I feel a connection with and develop new friendships.  I prefer deep lasting friendship and it takes time for me to find and connect with other moms.  Hoping that we will not have to move for many years, it is something that I will find with time.

Below is a picture of my daughter being grumpy.  I remember this day because it was one of those times where this whole episode could have gone much easier if I had my emotions under control.